Being a perfectionist is one of my special trait. But frankly, i never declared myself as a perfectionist and i didn't want to at the very first place. First, menjadi seorang perfectionist mempunyai konotasi yang agak negatif buat diriku sendiri, well i thought so. why? karena identically, being a perfectionist means we want something simple but it could turn out to be something complicated unconsciously. Everything must be in perfect way, without any flaws. which is, it is not a bit good for certain surroundings around me. 

Second, ngga semua orang bisa nerima masukan ataupun kemauan seorang perfectionist ini. karena lagi-lagi, seorang perfectionist maunya banyak! dan terlebih lagi harus sesuai dengan keinginan dia dan not everyone is capable in following the orders.  That's why being a perfectionist makes people think we are bossy. And people tend to dislike or hate the bossy guys. Sometimes tho! 

And Third, i'm genuinely so pissed off with people when they use something or stuffs, but never turn it back into the proper place like it used to be. Or goods but they are not well-organized. Atau semisal habis makan atau masak, tapi ngga langsung dicuci, well i am extremely pissed off sih sama yang gini lol but i prefer keep it to myself  rather than make a scenes.

Fourth,  When it comes to typing in laptop in ms.word or sorta things, i will use justify alignment because, the others just not so..neat. I dislike it. Pokoknya harus rapi banget nget nget and really into details. And my friend said "kamu orangnya perfectionist bgt ya fen." when i checked the proposal and about to emailed him again to be printed out. Well, he is not the first tho who said i'm such a perfectionist.

However, being a perfectionist is not merely this miserable or pissed kok. Because i tend to make everything in a perfect way or perfect shapes, the result somehow just magnificent. (I am not saying the result is going to be perfect, but at least i am very proud of it and satisfied.) (although it took so long than usual.)  One of my experience was when i was in 2nd Semester and i got task from my lecturer to make a paper. And it must contain at least 5 books references. So, i borrowed the books  from the library and worked on it. Honestly, i was a bit in pressured because the subject that i took supposed to be in 3rd semester, that's why i worked so hard because i was too afraid. lol.

And, the 2nd semester passed, and all of sudden, my friend said "fenty, nilai mu dipampangin di infocus loh sama bapak ***. Cie. Katanya ada anak 2015 nilainya paling tinggi dari pada kating." well, i was a bit surprised and happy at the same time. hahaha. and i recalled the time when i worked hard on my task and etc then i thought "ga ada hasil yang mengkhianatin usaha." And of course, thanks to my perfectionist trait because it wouldn't let me untuk ngumpulin tugas yang seadanya. even, sometimes i felt the burdensome in it. lol.

Subsequently, I am still working on my memorial for next year, tapi rasanya susah banget nyelesaiinnya even sebenarnya udah bisa ditulis. but, being a perfectionist, kata seadanya aja is never enough right? ;)