Being a perfectionist is one of my special trait. But frankly, i never declared myself as a perfectionist and i didn't want to at the very first place. First, menjadi seorang perfectionist mempunyai konotasi yang agak negatif buat diriku sendiri, well i thought so. why? karena identically, being a perfectionist means we want something simple but it could turn out to be something complicated unconsciously. Everything must be in perfect way, without any flaws. which is, it is not a bit good for certain surroundings around me. 

Second, ngga semua orang bisa nerima masukan ataupun kemauan seorang perfectionist ini. karena lagi-lagi, seorang perfectionist maunya banyak! dan terlebih lagi harus sesuai dengan keinginan dia dan not everyone is capable in following the orders.  That's why being a perfectionist makes people think we are bossy. And people tend to dislike or hate the bossy guys. Sometimes tho! 

And Third, i'm genuinely so pissed off with people when they use something or stuffs, but never turn it back into the proper place like it used to be. Or goods but they are not well-organized. Atau semisal habis makan atau masak, tapi ngga langsung dicuci, well i am extremely pissed off sih sama yang gini lol but i prefer keep it to myself  rather than make a scenes.

Fourth,  When it comes to typing in laptop in ms.word or sorta things, i will use justify alignment because, the others just not so..neat. I dislike it. Pokoknya harus rapi banget nget nget and really into details. And my friend said "kamu orangnya perfectionist bgt ya fen." when i checked the proposal and about to emailed him again to be printed out. Well, he is not the first tho who said i'm such a perfectionist.

However, being a perfectionist is not merely this miserable or pissed kok. Because i tend to make everything in a perfect way or perfect shapes, the result somehow just magnificent. (I am not saying the result is going to be perfect, but at least i am very proud of it and satisfied.) (although it took so long than usual.)  One of my experience was when i was in 2nd Semester and i got task from my lecturer to make a paper. And it must contain at least 5 books references. So, i borrowed the books  from the library and worked on it. Honestly, i was a bit in pressured because the subject that i took supposed to be in 3rd semester, that's why i worked so hard because i was too afraid. lol.

And, the 2nd semester passed, and all of sudden, my friend said "fenty, nilai mu dipampangin di infocus loh sama bapak ***. Cie. Katanya ada anak 2015 nilainya paling tinggi dari pada kating." well, i was a bit surprised and happy at the same time. hahaha. and i recalled the time when i worked hard on my task and etc then i thought "ga ada hasil yang mengkhianatin usaha." And of course, thanks to my perfectionist trait because it wouldn't let me untuk ngumpulin tugas yang seadanya. even, sometimes i felt the burdensome in it. lol.

Subsequently, I am still working on my memorial for next year, tapi rasanya susah banget nyelesaiinnya even sebenarnya udah bisa ditulis. but, being a perfectionist, kata seadanya aja is never enough right? ;)

Hidup itu gak selalu sesuai dengan kemauan ataupun kepentingan pribadi diri kita, terkadang kita harus bisa hidup dengan orang lain, dan harus bisa fit in disegala kondisi apalagi kalo judulnya "hidup bersama". By means of hidup bersama not merely about a couple who live together tho, tapi di cerita kali ini, aku bakal lebih concern sama kehidupan anak kost-kostan yang hidupnya seatap dengan orang lain yang kadang tidak sepemikiran dan tidak sama gaya hidupnya.

Well, i have an issue, isu tersebut adalah ketika sekeliling ku dalam keadaan yang kotor and let's say it's public use. And i bet, everyone also feel the same. but, wHy sometimes di surrounding ku seperti itu?! so fed up. I can't help but thinking apakah karena mereka udah selesai memakai barang-barang tersebut or aktivitasnya  udah selesai jadinya who's next to use the stuffs they didn't even bother gitu?!

I love cooking. which is i have to be in the kitchen to prepare stuffs but sometimes what makes me mad is dapurnya itu kotor. And i am not so called a neat freak BUT come on, you guys have the responsibility to take care of your mess and belongings to be cleaned up. We don't serve maid here, ladies. The fact is almost 100% of anak kost ku memakai dapur but just 40% that actually take a shit to the chores.

We have already told ya directly or even indirectly thru the post notes which is A LOT around the kitchen's wall that saying "abis masak tolong dicuci dan dibereskan" and we actually put them a lot *cri* do you guys can't read it properly or you have an issue with understanding bahasa? *gasp*

Even more, buat Maba Miba yang baru nge kost atau jauh dari orangtua, mungkin baru ngerasain hidup mandiri, gak ada yang nyuciin or so, ya mulai sekarang dibiasain buat take care of the mess you made in OUR kitchen. abis masak, meja nya di beresin, kalau ada yang jatuh-jatuh atau minyaknya nyeprat sana sini ya tolong di lap, dan juga plis peralatannya langsung di cuci karena sink nya bakalan sempit kalo masih banyak yang kotor dimana i don't feel comfortable at all.

I have responsible to my trash that's why i always clean up the kitchen as neat as i can. That's why, whenever dapurnya kotor, i feel betrayed?! like, is this what i get in return?! Ya intinya dari sebanyak keluh kesah ini, please dapurnya di bersihin karena yang make juga bukan kamu aja. The way you treat others is actually the reflection the way you value yourself.

Actually, I am not the kind of girl who likes eating in the place so called Angkringan, but who the hell knows that right now i have my favorite one. As you guys knew, i already stay in Yogyakarta for about 3 years and this place that i dear so much, rich with its culinary and it's obvious that the angkringan in Yogyakarta are different like in another town. The feels.


I don't know the certain reason why people like to eat or even just hang out in Angkringan when you know, the lighting and place somehow just a bit dark and not too comfortable (for me), with friends or etc but one thing for sure, it might be because its cheap prices and its simplicity. But, for certain Angkringan that i ever visited, it offered a little bit high standard prices and i was a bit surprised lol hm maybe because it's located in strategic area for tourists (re:Tugu).

Well, i just realized that every once a week (or even more), i'll come to my fave Angkringan and besides, its location is extremely near with my Kost-kostan, only 3minutes by walk. it is located in Hotel Madukoro's yard. And it is called with Angkringan Baba. 


What i love about this angkringan are, the humble ibu penjualnya and she is so kind! she even has a nickname for me haha she called me "cah ayu" everytime i came. Also, The meals and beverages. It only served nasi kucing as the main course. But, others snacks like Sate Puyuh, Tahu Bom, Sate Kulit, Gorengan, and etc also served too.

Talking about the prices, it is affordable kok. For 1 portion of Nasi kucing, its price about 3K. Nasi kucing nya pun juga banyak jenis lauk nya kok! ada ikan teri sambel (My favo), Ayam rica, Oseng tempe. seporsi nya kira-kira ya...sekepalan tangan lebih, ya namanya juga nasi kucing hehe. Kalo jajanan nya itu, paling mahal mungkin 4K ya buat sate telur puyuh yg isinya ada 5/4 telur.

Dan minumannya! I don't disagree about the very good taste of Susu Jahe (Ginger Milk) by her. Komposisinya selain ada jahe dan susu, juga ada gula jawa merah nya jadi rasa minumannya kayak pedes-pedes manis seger hangetin gitu deh haha. My favorite above all. kadang ke tempat ini cuma pesen minumannya doang.. Tapi, selain JaheSusu, minuman yang lain juga tersedia kok, jadi tenang aja kalo yang gak suka minuman tradisional. Harganya sih kurang lebih 7K. (Ginger Milk)


Buat ukuran tempatnya, lumayan nyaman buat Angkringan untuk orang seperti aku. dan bersih! this is a must! But, sekarang setiap malam mungkin sekitaran jam 10 malem keatas, angkringannya suka penuh karna banyak anak-anak pada nongkrong dan paling gasuka kalau ada asap rokoknya, so i prefer to take my foods away lol and besides makanan di tempat crowded i just cannot and ain't comfortable unless of necessity. (lah jadinya bukan makan angkringan dong namanya?) And FYI, Angkringan Baba bukanya pas jam 19.00-tutup. maybe around 24.00 WIB dan berlokasi di Jl. Tamansiswa, di pekarangan Hotel Madukoro. Worth the money deh pokoknya, Pas banget sama kantong anak kost.

When Breath Becomes Air was not my favorite but right now, it is one of in the list. Why? Because as i have finished read the whole pages, it taught me so much lessons. Such as about life, love, family, works, co-workers, and others that i cannot mention one by one.

The first time i knew about the book was when i unintentionally click random picture in explore of instagram and when i open it, it was from gitasav (one of insta celeb) and i went thru to the comments and someone said it was good and sad at the same time, then i screenshoot it and made it into my list to buy.

And someday, when i came into the bookstore, i was looking for Murakami's because dad's in town lol but ended up i didn't because it was expensive rather than in another store so i decided to buy another book and again, i intentionally found this!!! undoubtably, i picked it with love hahah and seek for other books and got into the cashier.

I unpacked it, and ripped the plastic to uncover it and started to read it.

My impression about the book was,

"Oh, this book, has an easy words to understand."
"Where's the part when he suffered the cancer?."

But then, i was wrong. The words of the book was filled with medical's verbality that i can not understand and it made me feels like i was a medical student for a moment lol.

This book, divided into two parts. the first part told about the story of paul when he's still young, still study for his residency, how he succeed his medical journey, how he was in the top of them.

and, the second part told about  story of paul when he suffered and fighting to his illness, even at the moment he ever had his good condition back, and even he was in OR operating patient, when he and his wife decided to have child, well, his wife Lucy was work in medical career too as anesthetist.

The story of this book was very emotional, when you have to sacrifice everything you've been built in the first place to the future but then, there was no future at all. About what's important thing to makes you hold out. About leaving our dearest people because you knew you didn't have much time.

Frankly, this book made me in tears at some part. I don't know if you guys (to people that have been read it or soon will be) would in tears too lol because i am such melancholic person.

I also have a few of my favorites words that i quoted from this book:

These are my favos from his beautiful written book.
What's yours?

Menstruation or Menses is a shedding of endometrial tissue from the womb that is released through the vagina. Women have a period approximately every 28 days, however, there is some variation in this cycle, ranging from a 24-day to a 35-day cycle. A period is part of the woman's menstrual cycle. And i am in the long cycle like 30-day cycle or even more. It is usually takes time up to 5-7days but some woman have various periods. Well, that was a brief explanation about menses in general. However, i am not going to talk about some medic or so because i am not an expert nor a medical student but law hoho. 

There were few symptoms of PMS (Premenstrual Syndrome) i felt in the days leading up to my periods, such as cramping in the lower abdomen, pain which radiates down the legs, nausea, feeling generally emotional or troubled, irritability, breast swelling, slight weight gain, abdominal bloating, acne in certain place but most of the time was in chin. But the most symptoms that hits me are i will be more sensitive, i felt the swelling of my breast and sometimes it hurts. And i am pretty sure, if you read this and you are a girl, then you have at least experienced it like me. 

However, there are some of my friends that when i question their first day of periods, how did it feels like? did it hurts or just ordinary? and they answered it just went ordinary and no pain exist. Well...I envy them huhu because they are so lucky! Tapi, beberapa gejala tersebut hanya bertahan beberapa hari sebelum mau M kok, but it all depends on how long your body takes time or your hormones works, mine sometimes it took only 2 days before but sometimes 2 weeks before! so unpredictable, just like girls. phew. 

And when the periods came.......the first day was like !"£$%^&* seriously. it felt like your womb started to fall down with an extraordinary bleeding. The shedding of endometrial tissues just felt so real haha i am so overact but that's so true. And fyi, if there are no important stuffs going on in the campus, I'll skip classes for a day in my first day lol and it often happened. And i ever have my unlucky experience was when i traveled in Singapore and i got it in the first day and obviously it felt like i wanna go home right now i can't take it anymore lol and my holidays became bothered and i got easily angry and very emotional. And it happened for twice:). When the pain is so severe that it interferes with normal activity, it is called dysmenorrhea. 

Concerning the dysmenorrhea, These are following symptoms that happen to me: Cramping in the lower abdomen, Diarrhea, Headache, Low back pain, Nausea, Pain in the lower abdomen, Pain which radiates down the legs, Tiredness (fatigue), Weakness. Fyi, YES i got diarrhea during the first day of periods lol as i red in the articles, it is said because of the pressure of the cramping in the lower stomach so it made the contraction got harder.

What do i do during my periods? and particularly during dysmenorrhea? well, i used hot water bottle and holding one against the abdomen may help in reducing discomfort. i never took pills don't know why, just scared hm. And also helping myself to sleep, because in sleep you will lose every aches. that's the best relief actually. lol. And of course, the routine of exercise before periods but i seldom do this hehe. 

Also, the application that helps me to observe my periods is Period Calender. thank you so much hehe. 

Lastly, Thankyou for reading my experience during periods and do not hesitate to ask if you have question so that we can share and discuss together. hehe see you in another occasion peeps!

XoXo-F

Sooo here i am, going to do a review about books, well my favorite books,  and those are written by a fabulous novelist Meg Cabot! Hooray! The first time i bought it when i was in my first year in mid school and it was a translate book but still a very formal translate which is i found very funny because the translator tried to translate an Americans slang into Bahasa and it sounds so um...what can i say? kind of weird? well i do think so. 

Literally, the first book i bought was an old edition because it was being published in 2000 (after i googled it lol) but i red it when it was 2009?? and the fun facts is: all those 6 books were being published in 2000-2005. so i don't know whether those books just came late or was it just me? lol but at least, I've found them hehe.

I was thinking randomly like, what if the comfort zone we've built to people, make us less appreciate a little thing? to the things we've shared, the moments we've been through, and so on. many times, we didn't realize that we've skipped or even forgot to feel blessed. Like you've made a circle interaction with people and you've built the comfort zone, but you just take them for granted because you have that thought you'll always have time for tomorrow. 

Honestly, I am not the kind of friend whom would ask how your day was or ask how were you everyday. But at least, i tried so hard not to forget to say thank you or even sorry whenever i asked someone a favor or if i was mistaken. i know it wasn't easy at the first time, but as long as you keep the faith and put it in your mind, i obviously sure you gradually and constantly will do the same. 

And i know, some people might have a thought, is it necessary to say thank you or sorry over  a little thing when we've already known that the person we asked or felt guilty absolutely know we've already feel thanks and sorry implicitly? Alright, let say they've known it, but i would like to stressing in How we can appreciate people by a little thing that we rarely do to our closest friend but it actually would means a lot. 

I was amazed when i was in my older friend's kost and she introduced her friends to me and they all said please or thank you or sorry over a little thing. not because they were dramatically obsessed with such an honor or so on but through what i saw, they appreciated each other by the things people rarely realize and even forgotten.

For a simple example, our mom have many times cooked us meals but have we shown our gratitude in a way of thank you mom for cooking to me. I'm sure we rarely say that, but actually if we do, i believe our mom would feel the bliss. even though it was only over a small thing. 

And last but not least, do it with the closest person in our life because insensibly, we might forgot because we are already in that comfort zone so we're automatically have that point of view those people as our closest people might implicitly known we've already thanks or sorry. But then again, let us make a good habit and behaviour and appreciate more over little things to our dearest people. Because i know if it only goes to an acquaintance, we will say thankyou or sorry even if we're not intended to just because to show the good manners. 

XoXo-F